Once upon a time I was a fragmented mess. On the outside I had it all...or at least what I thought it was supposed to look like. I had an amazing husband, beautiful and healthy kids, we had a nice house, we were able to go on an occasional vacation and I was living my dream as a midwife.
However, inside I was OFTEN in an experience of fragmentation and disconnection. I was living SO FULL ON, so full speed ahead, trying to be all the things for all the people and ignoring all of my own body rhythms, inner callings and longings. I know, I know, you REALLY wouldn't think a midwife would live this way but it was true (and honestly way too common!) I was living for everyone else and inside I was feeling bitter, lonely, anxious and SO SOUL TIRED. I fought with and judged my inner longing, the quiet voice inside that was beckoning me into a new way of being. A way that I didn’t see around me and so I was stuck in FEAR and WHAT IF’s.
The voice grew louder and louder and my external experience began to show the effects of the misalignment. I was experiencing the beginning of an autoimmune disease and adrenal fatigue…what I now see as symptoms of a life lived inauthentic and out of balance with my internal and natures rhythms. My joints started to ACHE, my hair began to fall out in clumps, I started having panic attacks and my mind often had thoughts of ending it all.
But WHO was I desiring to end? Who was the true me? Was it what I did, how I parented, how I served, my roles….who was me? These questions stirred within and were also met with judgment, “Was my life really so bad? I should be grateful! I should be happy! I should be having the best years of my life! I should just think positive”
Enter the point of no return.
At 35 a thrid baby came our way, unexpectedly and fully welcomed. When he was born he had colic...he cried and cried and cried and cried for 6 FULL MONTHS (unless I was bouncing). I took him to every healer, doctor and path I could find looking for answers. I didn't sleep, I barely ate for fear it would upset him even more. In the end I SURRENDERED and he SHIFTED.
Right around this exact same time that he stopped crying and started smiling we decided to make a big change in life. We decided to sell EVERYTHING and move to Maui, a slower pace of life and community lifestyle. I still was looking for something OUTSIDE to fix me. So we did it, we took a ginormous leap. I stopped midwifing and "just" homeschooled our then three kids. In the beginning my hair fell out more, I cried EVERY SINGLE DAY in the bathroom and judged myself all the time for not feeling happy and grateful like “I should”.
Eventually I shifted. I experienced the healing power of the tears of finally allowing myself to FEEL all the things I bottled up. I embraced the new rhythm that was supported by the culture around me and slowly judged myself less. My hair slowly stopped falling out, I slowly started feeling more alive and listening INSIDE, loving INSIDE and exploring INSIDE. I allowed myself to align to my pace, a turtle, to listen to my inner world and to begin to discover who I truly was and allow that out into the world more.
This adventure cracked me open. The move only ended up lasting 9 months, the perfect time for a rebirthing journey. It was the HARDEST and MOST EXPANSIVE 9 months of my life.
At 35 I finally began the journey of ReWilding and ReClaiming of my true self. Of living in alignment with my own inherent rhythm and reclaiming all of the parts of myself that I had banned to the “basement” of picking up the pieces and coming into greater balance and wholeness. The journey of course didn’t stop there, along the way I have continued to reclaim and rewild and pick up tools to share and guide others with.
A decade later I now have 4 children, still an amazing husband and more than anything I have a true zest for life and connection with my true self. I realized the purpose of my life was simply to be me, that this is the most valuable thing I have to offer, to share my unique song in the world.
A Bit More About Me-
I am a mama to 4 amazing kids age 7-17 and a partner to one awesome Brit for over 20 years. I have been a midwife since 2008 and have helped 100’s and 100’s of women find their power and become mothers. I have also been a mentor for teens, worked with girls empowerment programs, a guide for women through all of life's changes. I am the founder of Powerful Puberty a live and online workshop helping girls and mom’s step into this new phase of live with deeper connection to each other and their bodies. I now have stepped firmly into the sacred role of soul midwife and healer.
I am a sacred feminine way facilitator, have been trained in various meditation techniques, shamanic practices and healing arts. I geek out in knowing all about the physiology of the body as well as connecting that to my deeper knowledge of quantum physics and the sacred space we all live in.
In the end the work that we do together isn’t about me… It’s about helping midwife you to the ReWilding and ReClaiming of YOU!
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A Well Spring of Medicine for the Body, Mind and Soul.
ReWilding is connecting to the rhythm and truth of our inner and outer worlds! To live in deeper coherence with your body, mind and soul so that you feel vibrant, aligned and alive from the inside out. Connecting to the rhythm and truth of our inner and outer worlds!
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An Exploration to the rediscover the most true you.
A journey for a community of women in the mid-life phase of life i to ReClaim or bring all the pieces back together and step into your most true self!
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Deep Nervous System Support and Embodied Medicine
We spend SO much time in our body but do we actual have a relationship with it? Do we understand it’s communication or do we just push and push it? Reconnecting is perfect for nervous system balancing and deeper body integration.
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